Maybe that's a bit of an exaggeration. But I have found myself several times in this process (and we're only two months into it!) thinking "Why don't we just run off somewhere to do this". The thing is - I want the party. And I want my family, his family, our friends to be there to help us celebrate and watch us make that commitment.
What I don't want is the ridiculous fees tied to anything "wedding" related - catering, flowers, music. And then you add on all the little things that you think will just make your day so much better than anything experienced before because that's what everyone else in the blogs and magazines are doing.
So here I am, two months into it, having trouble sleeping because of the ever increasing dollar sign I keep seeing in my head (that's coming straight out of our two bank accounts only) and stressing about the people, because of either venue capacity or that ever growing dollar sign, we won't be able to invite even though we love them and consider them important in our lives. All of this, and we haven't even booked anything yet.
I just feel really fortunate that right now, while going through this, I have a partner by my side who tells me to take the deep breath, that we're going to have a fun day and it'll be what we want and something we have for "us" for the rest of our lives. And that all of the other little things don't matter; then I'm able to smile and enjoy all of this again.
Until the next blog I see with the gorgeous four digit dress and 5 level cake. Sigh.